Revelations, October 15, 1997 by John

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Who: John
What: Revelation
When: October 15, 1997
Where: Breakfast table

Whoever cannot claim to have made a choice by which he would live or die does not know life in its fullest. I speak of a moment when the passion with which one searches one soul to find meaning to one’s life is so overflowing, so exuberant that it is as if the flower of revelation has bloomed in one’s heart. Where is the person who can pass over such a choice? His must be a depressing face to look upon and a sad step to watch. He will know that he lives his life as but a murky reflection of what it could be, and so he skulks about the shadows trying to hide from himself.

Not I though. I had the courage to bloom and open my whole soul to the world. It came upon me in the most daily of activities, reading the comics. The joke was of a man who had lived his life in sin, believing God forgave all. The punchline is unimportant here. What struck me was that God must not forgive all, for Satan still calls the underworld his abode. With this thought I clutched my heart and felt a roiling in my gut. Imagine, to live the rest of eternity in damnation. I had then before me the choice of embracing God in my life or of denying him.

I faced this choice head on, let it run smack into me and I stood stalwart. I looked down at it and thought I could step over it and leave fate to work upon my eternal soul or I could pick it up, make it a part of my life. Seize it I did! I reveled in the glory of God and live now for the purpose of pleasing him.